Thursday, August 6, 2009

I forbid you

He still hasn't called

After our first big fight.
C and I.
He still hasn't called. Five days and no word from him.
It was horrible
I was driving when we started fighting.
I had to pull over.
I was crying way too much to be on the road
I couldn't believe how unreasonable he could be.

All because of Caribana

"Hey baby"
"Hey C! Missed you, missed you, missed you,missed youuuuu!"
Something about hearing his voice makes me act like a five year old.
"Miss you too dear. What are you doing?"
"Driving up to toronto for Caribana weekend."
"What's Caribana?"
"Some big west indian festival. Just another excuse to have a parade and go clubbing and get stupid drunk."
"Ah so you're going to get your freak on."
"Ha ha! Exactly! lots of American boys in town too"
"Hmmm... American boys huh? Thought you didn't like Americans?"
"I don't but it's a change from Canadian boys."
"So you plan to meet a boy this weekend?"

I should have noticed that he was way to fixated on the "boys" but I didn't.

"Yupp! Maybe one for every night of the weekend even."
"Yes baby?"


"Excuse me? I'm sorry, have you forgotten that you are married? I'm not even your girlfriend! You have no right to forbid me anything. I will do what I damn well please with my weekend and any boys that happen to come along my way!"

I think I shocked him with that. I'm normally super nice and uber sweet but I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

He was not liking it. We went back and forth.

Mad and crying I told him:

"Am I going to be your other woman forever? I have to meet someone. I can't put my life on hold for you. You're not leaving your wife ever. You're not marrying me. I'm supposed to wait till you get tired of me and find somebody who younger and cuter? I have a right to be happy too!"

And then he said this

"You are my girl and as long as you are my girl there will be no other men in your life. Go ahead and have fun with your girls this weekend but if you're involved with any men I will know it and we will be done!"

I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"SCREW YOU!" I flung the phone into the back seat and parked. I had heard more than enough.

Sad as it is to say, I didn't meet any men that weekend. I didn't even go out. I stayed at a friends in my pajamas. Upset and weepy for the entire weekend.
I hate that he can affect me like this and I hate that every time my phone rings I get mad when its not him.

And I can't believe he still hasn't called


  1. He sure would call back!!!

    You have to make the decision of either sticking with him or moving on without him.

    I am been there before and I know how it feels even though He wasn't married.

    Have a lovely weekend and girl abeg have all the fun you can

  2. No man should have that much power over you(i'm one to talk), especially not one married to someone else.

    The only thing i can say is: please, love yourself more. You shouldnt be going through all this. its basically unnecessary stress

    ...and you better 'have a parade and go clubbing and get stupid drunk' this weekend. basically have loads of fun. thats an order :)

  3. Hmm... I disagree with him. x!

  4. dang!i'm glad u threatened 2 hook up with other guys...he has a wife so he needs to know there's a possibility of u gettin a main squeeze as well.
    i LUV ur picture BTW!

  5. Funny how we're seas apart and yet shit is all the same. These men!! Always our downfall! There's two sides to u(like u hav described abt urself and like ur pic portrays) Maybe its time to let ur other side out to play for a while...:-)